[ The Holiday ]

The movie that I extremely adore (it's a chick flick... well sort off). Starring Cameron Diaz, Jude Law, Kate Winslet And Jack Black
This are some of the lines I took from a scene of Kate Winslet realizing that the man she loves was in love with someone else. (I cried every time I watched this scene.. and the whole movie)



"Those years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who DOES NOT and WILL NOT love me back.

It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get
or gyms you join
or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends...
you still go to bed every night going over every details
and wonder what you did wrong
or how you could have misunderstood
and how in the hell, for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy.

Sometimes you even convince yourself that he'll see the light
and show up at your door...
And after all that.. however long all that maybe,
YOU'LL GO SOMEWHERE NEW,
you'll meet people who make you feel WORTHWHILE again.

And little pieces of your soul will finally come back;
and all that fussy stuff
and those years of your life you've wasted...
that...
eventually begin to fade."


And here's the video. enjoy it! catch her saying the lines starting at 2.22:

[ Beauty & The Beast ]

I‘m an invisible kid in high school (not being narcissistic in this present time), and YES people do tripped over me. It’s a lot of pressure for a 13year old freshmen. There's a time where I'm labelled a rhinoceros and my god!.. SJP would pity me that time.

But being crowned prom night’s “Prom King” was the cherry on top of my senior years. That oughta shut those b****y catty mouth.
I went through a phase of discovering my sexual orientation. Met internet "friends", have multiple sex, met love all the way, getting hurt inside… *sigh*

Some people asked me for dating tips and I can’t give them an exact answer (It’s like asking for parenting tip from Britney) because I wasn’t that sure myself.

I develope myself and making changes for good but there would be people saying “it won’t do you any good” or “nothing would change”. Let's say I don't listen to people that much. Headstrong.

Being a butterfly is tiring (no wonder they last only for 2 weeks). They eventually die and people would only remember how beautiful they were not the kind they are. Having that hard work recognized and being turned down was another bullet through my head. Probably they were genetically engineered to not feel anything when saying “I can’t be with you”.

But sometimes it’s me to blame. It's time to reincarnate and live again.

Start anew was easy (in my head) but I just can’t get my foot on the right track. I still got debris somewhere between my teeth. And can’t figure out what and where it is.
Being beautiful doesn’t always get me what I want; sometimes I had to let other people get in my way in order to get myself up. I know it sounded as if I let trash poured on me but I need to swallow some of it. Like taking the pain with me and turn it to neutral thoughts. Positive.

Now, I’m really happy. Good food. I feel healthy. A non-smoking and non-drinking 22 year old guy. Though my heart and mind feel old, that’s a good thing right?

And this is not I’m-ugly-I-and-I-need-to-be-praised post. It’s just something I thought off .

Metamorphosis mode.

Cheers!!

[ Nice ]

[ I have two dads ]

[ our love ]

"by Aleaf"

It was written on the sand
Survived the blazing sun
Endured people walking over us
Withstand the cold night
No matter how durable that love was
The ocean’s wave would wash it all out
Dried-out and damaged

Forbidden sand-carved love.

[ I Realize ]

“by Aleaf"

He jumped off to another

And still sleeps at night.

Never have the thought to consider me

Have to look what you’re looking for

I just got to know

It’s not me.

[ Sometimes ]

“by Aleaf”



Sometimes we keep secrets to survive
Sometimes we lie so we don’t lose the one we care
Sometimes hormones made u do strange things
Sometimes when you know, that you “KNOW”,
we just can’t put our hopes too high.


Sometimes it's a lot harder avoiding people than facing them
Sometimes when we love we don't get it back in return
Sometimes it's not always our family that love you the most
Sometimes it's the family that you make yourself.

Sometimes when we grew apart
we still sang the same "old song"
Sometimes the world doesn't go your way
Life and death?
Sometimes we have to think about it.

[ Is it? *Smirk* ]

Sex is better après-pleur

wuhoooo....