[ To Fall In Love... Again ]

Honestly I don't expect people to read my blog. I don't even know if ever people ever read this. Writing kept me sane.. or probably one of my own therapy. 

I like a lot of people... I want them to be my partner. But I seem can't to put my hands on it. Ya know. Making the first step.

Because I'm tired of it.

Right now.. I have few (sort of like candidates) person that I would love to let them hear what I've felt... "I LOVE YOU"

But my heart's locked.. So where's the right keys? Or should I put it "WHO HAS IT?"
Maybe this delays got me in this single man status. 2 years plus... in counting.

I'm afraid that probably I will miss how is it like to flirt around.. or to experience love with someone else if ever I'm in a relationship now. Probably I made the same excuse so that I won't get hurt again.

My previous exes.. well kinda affected my way of doin things around. especially the last one.. So maybe I flatter myself by thinking that they're trying to get on my nerves.. but.. ya know, probably that's just me. I have to stop writing about them... someday.

Anyways I can't fall in love in 3 days.... It's hard. I just don't believe in love at first sight. Cause that only means *I want to get in bed with you.. pronto!*.. well at least that what I think of it. *chuckle*

I want you.... where-ever or who-ever you are now..

[ One of Those Thoughts ]

.. I spent my whole life... pleasing people.. even follow what they've ordered.. or being asked to become what I am not..

well.. I guess... I hope I won't be having the same tune this year.

I'm happy now. I want to travel.. for real this time. I have plans and confirmed trip. I'll go as far as I may. Wish me luck.

I sleep alone every night... I have hopes, that kept me waking up in the morning with a smile on my face.

Regards,

The boy who loves green